Starting to get worried....

Okay, i know that i am only 37w1d, but i'm starting to get worried that this baby is not going to come on his own. I don't think i've ever had a Braxton Hicks contraction in my life! Seriously, i never had any with Carter, and don't think i've had any with this baby either. I have been feeling lots more pressure down below, but that's it. No contractions, haven't lost mucous plug, nothing. I hope that at my appt Thursday i am making some progress! I'm just worried because the hospital i'm delivering at does not induce, so i'm scared that he'll be in there too long and i'll end up with a c-section. That would be so devastating to me, really!! I don't want to be induced, but i'm just freaking out because there isn't even an option for that! Carter was 8.3 lbs and got stuck and ended up having to be taken out with forceps. You would think that my doctors would be monitoring this baby's weight closely to make sure i don't get into that situation again, but it's like they don't even care! Ugh....i just am praying that this baby decides to come on his own and i'm able to push him out!!

Utterly Exhausted...

I think all my energy i've had the past week or so is finally catching up with me. I'm so exhausted i can barely keep my eyes open. I'm supposed to be doing laundry right now but am just going to do it tomorrow morning. Our laundry room at the apt is in the next building over and i don't feel like walking over there to load clothes in the washer, then back to load in the dryer, then back to get them and fold/put them away. Brad took Carter over to the in-laws and i'm meeting them in a little bit for dinner-thank God i don't have to cook or spend money on take-out! I'm extremely stressed out about money right now-aren't we always? I mean, i think this is the worst it's been, i can't WAIT to get our tax return back, even though most of it will just hit our bank account as a detour and then go off to pay bills! I think my mind is just completely fried from all the thinking and stressing. I've done nothing but clean the past week or so and i worked 3 nights in a row this week which is hard for me! I can't fall asleep right away when i get home so i spend a while just winding down and then still have to get up with Carter who has decided that his 8:30 wake time that i LOVED isn't working anymore and is now waking up at 7 on the dot! AND he has peed the bed 4 times in the past 6 days!!! I blame Brad b/c he gives in to his bedtime milk cravings when i am at work. I mean, at least put a pull up on him for God sake if you give him something to drink after 7pm!! Honestly, the only thing i can't complain about is my pregnancy, which i think is great due to the fact that i will be 37 weeks-FULL TERM-on Sunday and i still feel fabulous! Anyways, that is my rant for the day, i'm sure there will be more to come!

Mini Freak-out!

Okay, i know i have about 4 weeks til my due date still, but i had a mini freak-out earlier! When the doctor handed me the little slip to give to the front desk nurse to schedule my next appt she said "see you next week...unless we see you before!" She said it really could be any day now. I'm not even going to be full term until the 25th. Really, you shouldn't scare a pregnant lady like that! I'm not ready at all for this baby. Okay, i know i complain about being pregnant but ANOTHER human being to take care of? Wow, i'm going to go insane. I'm sure this baby isn't going to come for at least 2 more weeks but i still have a LOT to do around here, and i'm starting to get sad for Carter, b/c he won't be the only one anymore. So i got my hospital bag halfway packed, just to pass some time. I put in my coming home outfit, few pairs of underwear, nursing bra, socks, all my travel toiletries like shampoo, conditioner, etc., baby's coming home outfit, baby book, sling, boppy pillow and receiving blankets. I still need to get a hat and booties b/c i'm sure it will be COLD when we leave the hospital. I also still need to get a few essentials for me, too! My car's still dead so i'll just have to wait til Brad gets home and maybe i'll run to Wally World real quick. Oh, and i should mention that i had a mini panic attack yesterday morning at about 5am. I don't know why, my mind just wouldn't settle down and my heart was racing. I eventually calmed down enough to fall back asleep though!

F'n COLD!!!

Seriously, it's FREEZING!!! I just checked weather.com and it says it is -8 but feels like -28. We have a wind chill warning. I NEED groceries! We have like, next to nothing here! Well, nothing that i want at least. So i got myself all bundled up and got Carter's clothes all ready. I went out to start my car and---nothing. It barely made a clicking sound. Soooo looks like we're not going anywhere today.

Not quite sure how to title this one....

Well, my day had a rather rude start! I woke up at 6:22 to go pee, and then went back and laid down in bed. Brad was up getting ready for work and i was trying desperately to fall back asleep before Carter woke up. Well, then i hear cussing coming from the other room and wonder what the heck is going on! Brad comes in and says that the toilet in our bathroom is overflowing and was putting towels down around the toilet trying to soak up some of the water. He got it all soaked up and then left for work and i told him i'd call the maintenance guy when me and Carter got up. Well, Carter decided then that it was time to get up and grabbed a blanket, laid on the couch and turned on the tv. So i got him his milk and laid down beside him. I put in Thomas and drifted off for a couple minutes. Then i heard the doorbell ring so i get up and look through the peek-hole and it is our downstairs neighbor. She said that there was water leaking down in her bathroom and she called the emergency maintenance guy to come fix it. She thought a pipe burst or something. Great!!! So then i had to officially get up and start picking up the house frantically while waiting for the maintenance guy to come. Well, by 8:30 he still wasn't there and they have a key anyways so Carter and I left and did our grocery shopping. When we got back he was there taking apart our toilet. He tried the plunger, then the "snake" which is a long tube thing he stuck way down into the toilet. That didn't work so he had to take the entire toilet out of the ground and started looking down there. He could hear that there was something down there but couldn't get to it. Finally, he left with the toilet and came back about half an hour later with the culprit. The toilet paper holder. I had noticed that it was missing about a week ago, but our trash can is right below it and figured it fell into the trash and i threw it away by mistake. I'm assuming Carter threw it in there and flushed it down. Ugh......so he put our toilet back together and left after being here for 3 hours!!! It was definitely a long morning!!

What a morning

First off, my alarm woke me up at 7am, and i was sooo beyond tired that i just hit snooze...then again, then again until it was 7:45. I figured i still had time to take a quick shower and just be lazy with my hair today. I got up, took my quick shower, and then Carter woke up. Why does this kid always insist on sleeping in on the days when i have to get up early for work? Anyways, he woke up with a dry diaper for the 3rd morning in a row! I had him pee in the potty and continued to get ready for work. I threw on my clothes, splashed on a little make-up, put a little bit of gel in my hair, threw it in a ponytail and proceeded to get Carter ready. He had already had a cup of juice, so i made him pee in the potty again and then put on his pull-up and clothes. I put his shoes and socks on and got my shoes on. I grabbed my purse and made sure i had some change for the vending machine to grab breakfast. (yeah i know, i'm pg so i should be eating healthier but this morning i chose to sleep later instead) I got Carter's bag ready for daycare and grabbed my phone off the table. That's when it happened. I saw that i had a voicemail and a new text message. I checked the text message and it is the babysitter who says to check my voicemail asap b/c there is a problem. I checked my voicemail and it is her saying that she had to have an emergency appt. with her chiropractor this morning and therefore can't watch Carter. Ugh....so i had to call work and explain what happened. I tried getting a hold of a couple of back-up people i had in mind but couldn't get a hold of anyone. So here i am sitting in my work clothes still, and i feel horrible that i had to call off work today. I was supposed to be training people today, so i feel like i really let my bosses down. But there's nothing i can do about it, my babysitter didn't call me until an hour before i was supposed to be at work. The only good thing is that i get to be home with Carter all day.