How 'bout a Hot Seat??

I have been in a blogging funk lately so i'm taking Kimberly's advice and doing a Hot Seat. So anyone can ask any question they want and i will answer it! Don't be afraid to get juicy...my blog needs some spice!! So ask away and i'll come back and answer once i get some questions.

I'm not a good blogger.

I haven't posted anything new for a while.. I just feel like i haven't had anything interesting to say. I have a hard time putting my thoughts into words. Sooo i need to think of something cool to say..

Daddy's Little Helper

Brad did a total car clean-up on Sunday. Washed, waxed and vacuumed his car. Carter decided he needed to help, which was adorable. Here are some pics, don't mind the mis-matching outfit-he wet through the matching ones. Oh, and of course he had to wash his cars, also!

My Sister's Graduation!

I realize my blog needs something other than depressing posts so i'll add this one!! My youngest sister graduated yesterday! It was sad but exciting, too! I can't believe we have all graduated! I also can't believe i graduated 4 years ago! It doesn't seem like it was that long ago. Anyways, here are some pictures.




Stefi with our parents.
Stefi and I at her graduation party.
Sisters at graduation! Me, Stefi, and Jolene.

Ugh.....

Well i thought i'd write yet another woe is me post because that is all i can come up with lately. I promise one of these days i'll put something fun up here!! I am just so disgusted with my body lately and even though some people would think i look fine and wonder what i'm complaining about, i just have my own insecurities and this is how i feel. Here are my ups and downs since having my son. I need some motivation!

This is me the night before i got induced with Carter.



And my huge ol' belly. Carter was 8 lbs 3 oz so that's my excuse ;)


This is about 2 months after having Carter. I still have some jiggle but was proud of my body!



Here is me about 4 months after having Carter. I loved my body at this point!!


This is about 6 months after. I was starting to chub back up a little.

And this is from last summer. I was at my thinnest i've been since High School!



And this is last weekend.



I just need to get off my butt and get toned!! Brad and i just got a gym membership and i can't wait to start going. But anyways, just needed to get these pictures up so i can be motivated enough to look like i did last summer!!
If i can just remember what i did to look like that!
Oh, and i have no idea why i'm wearing that... definitely far from classy.

My life is out of control

I've been feeling so overwhelmed lately i don't know what to do. Carter is out of control and these terrible two's are destroying me. I don't know what to do with him. He won't listen to me at all. I've tried everything. I take him to the park because that is his favorite thing and he is horrible. He is constantly trying to play in the road even though he knows it's bad. He tells me it's bad but then goes and tries it again. Everytime i try to put him in his carseat it's a huge battle. He throws himself back and arches his back and won't let me buckle him in. It ends up him screaming and me almost in tears by the time i get him buckled in. He now refuses to go to sleep in his bed. Brad and i don't get any time to ourselves in the evenings. He has to either go to bed with Brad and me or i have to let him fall asleep on the couch. Naptime is a nightmare too. He refuses to eat for me and Brad but will eat for our parents and the babysitter. We can't take him to restaurants because his is completely horrible. It is so embarrassing that i can't control my own child. He is now horrible in the store too. He throws a fit because he wants to walk and i try to let him but then he tries throwing things off the shelf or running away so i have to put him back in the cart and then it's a battle just like the carseat. People stare and i feel like a horrible mom who can't control my child. Which i can't. We have been having financial problems for a few months and that doesn't help either. Brad is pressuring me to get a full time job and i just can't go out and get one. Plus, that won't really help much because child care is so expensive. I am trying to finish my classes but i never have time between working part-time and taking care of Carter and our apartment. We are really wanting to buy a house but our credit sucks so it's going to be a while before we get one. I just feel trapped and i don't know what to do. I feel like i have no control over anything in my life. My body is gone. I have gained so much weight and feel so gross and don't have time or energy to exercise. I feel suffocated most the time and just want to scream. I just had to get all that out. Sorry if it doesn't make sense but i thought maybe writing it all out would maybe help me a little.

Pictures from the park

It was such a nice day today so we took advantage and went to the park for a little bit.